Have you ever wondered what it feels like to go completely bonkers?
Well. I'm not sure I'd necessarily categorize mania as complete bonkers, in that there are still connections to an actual physical world, memories, some ability to communicate...
It feels like falling in love. Hard.
That type of bewildering drop into infatuation that makes your breath shallow, that leaves you wandering, distracted, wondering how you swallowed the sun without noticing. The whole world is connected in perfect synchrony, and you are at the beating core of it.
This is why maniacs don't want treatment. Who doesn't want to feel like that?
It's only later, when things turn dark, or speed too fast to bear, when it all becomes frightening and you can't connect with the people who love you because they don't understand anything about the encompassing inner world that's taken over your outer one, that treatment starts to seem like a good idea.
Even then, it has to be pretty bad for the desire to be rescued to overcome the shame of it all, or the hope the beautiful feelings might return for good.
Love can bring those feelings back. But then, you might remember that love feels exactly like losing your mind.